「only friends」- original song.

hello! i wish you a happy new year and all the best for 2023.

yesterday i uploaded my latest and last song for 2022. i really wanted it to be released before 2023 because i recorded the song this winter and it belongs with the other songs of 2022.

i think i’ve released 17 original songs in 2022? yeah, it seems so. i think this must be a record for me. :)

on to the latest song!

meaning

pov: in love and wanting to be around but at the same time wanting to run away

only friends is a song about a person who struggles between being just friends and being more than friends. it’s a huge crush packed with feelings of longing, doubt and pain.

my inspiration comes from the series ”cherry magic”, it’s written from kurosawa’s perspective of having a one-sided crush on adachi. many pieces from the lyrics are inspired from the drama.

this song’s working name was called ”black swamp” because of the name kurosawa (kuro =black, sawa = swamp”, but i chanced it because the words ”only friends” grabbed my attention.

creative process

i don’t know how many weeks this production took. it’s not that it was more hard than any other song, it’s just that i wanted to try something new with different instruments and sound, so it took some more time. i also had three side-projects this winter, two of them are finished and one is still continuing.

more than that, i had a really fun time doing this song. i want to fint more new percussions and beats to use in future productions.

illustration

it’s an orca! i picked it because i heard that the teenage orca’s are exploring their sexuality.

”After young orcas are old enough to leave their family group, they form seasonal packs of just young male whales. When they’re not busy feeding or telling each other porpoise jokes, they indulge in lots of male-on-male sex. None of the gang are left out, and all of them seem to be enjoying themselves.”

lyrics

you’ve been around me ever since last year

if you could hear the thoughts in my mind

the racing pulse whenever you’re near me

by now you’d know i wish you were mine

it’s quite enough just being around you

we’re only friends and nothing is strange

i wouldn’t dare to ask for an answer

i’m too afraid that something will change

said it to myself

denied it over again

retreat into my shell

i’m just so overwhelmed

wherever i am i think about you

whatever you say you’re so kind

wherever i go just can’t let you know

that i’ve liked you all this time

whoever you chose they’ll be happy

and if was me who you’d find

you would know it all

the thoughts in my mind

read what’s implied not just on the surface

I’m building up emotions inside

it takes so much in trying to hide them

read them out loud between the lines

it hurts too much just being around you

my hopes are up don’t know what to do

running away to keep me from hurting

i’m truly sorry i fell for you

said it to myself

denied it over again

retreat into my shell

i’m just so overwhelmed

wherever i am i think about you

whatever you say you’re so kind

wherever i go just can’t let you know

that i’ve liked you all this time

whoever you chose they’ll be happy

and if was me who you’d find

you would know it all

the thoughts in my mind

you would know it all

the thoughts in my mind