「i'm tired of making it up.」

i'm happy to be back again making music after a few weeks of vacation. i was pretty tired the weeks before summer and i felt like i was running on reserve batteries. i really looked forward to some free time. i wanted to avoid screens as much as i could because i got tired of looking into screens all the time. so i didn't make any music and i didn't procude anything this whole summer.

before summer, i always think about being creative and making a lot of songs and producing a lot in summer, but when summer comes i just don't have the energy. and i believe it's pretty much the same with almost everything you like. no matter how much you love it - it's good to take a break from it.

「making it up」 is my new youtube song. i wanted to play some electric guitar and keep it simple. i enjoyed doing it. (=^‥^=)

decided to put my lyrics here on the blog, so here it is!

i can’t explain my feelings

words come out, they don’t make sense

i tripped along this journey

toward the happy end

don’t dare to speak your name out

afraid of what it does to me

you’re there but still a stranger

i'm caged and you are free

i’m dying to see you

i’m trying to leave you

too tired to face the fact

i’m dying to feel you

i’m trying to hate you

i’m tired of making it up

i’m trapped inside this image

an image of a broken plan

i gave you all my hours

you just gave up what we had

to go on and on

i still see your colors

it goes on and on

i’ll never find another

will go on and on

it’s the same smile that you gave to me

to go on and on

i hate that i want you

it goes on and on

i will try to forget you

will go on and on

it’s the same smile that you gave to me

i’ve learned to see the difference

to leave when life will raise the bar

i know that time is precious

it will heal, become a scar

i’m dying to see you

i’m trying to leave you

too tired to face the fact

i’m dying to feel you

i’m trying to hate you

i’m tired of making it up