hello hello!

it's time for another youtube release, and this time it's a song about strong feelings, about wanting to reach out, about wanting for someone to understand after all this time.

it's a song without any string instruments (apart from the software instrument string section, but there are no acoustic or electric guitars and no ukulele. in most of my songs i always use to put in some sort of guitar part but i felt like this song is enought with piano and percussion and different types of synthesizers.

some inside information about the lyrics part!:

i wrote the lyrics in a hammock in a park.

i wanted to convey the feeling of not even taking the first step and talking to the person. "i mean, if you haven't tried you haven't failed." it's an interesting thought. i think it's possible to implement the feeling in different scenarios and dreams in life.

are there things that you want to do but scares you so much to fail at so you haven't started? is it possible to take a tiny step forward toward that dream? when i started releasing music, i didn't even dare to show myself on camera in the first videos (they are not published, haha). and there are still things that scares me but i believe those are the things that you gotta do. know why it is important to you and try taking the first steps, in your own pace. you gotta do it for youself and no one else.

the second part of the verse, i believe it's more about a dialoge with an inner muse of creativity. "finish all the paintings. fill in all those lines. all the things you never dared to do, i'll make them come alive." it's another beginning if you compare it to the first verse. it's like an inner spark of courage speaks here.


i'm happy of the lovely comments i got from people, i'm happy this song got to be inside your ears.

take care

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Updated: Sep 12

"just walk away" found its way to spotify! most of the songs i made this year are just meant to be uploaded on youtube, but after producing a song i can feel that i want it on spotify. it's not planned, it just happens and i think it's great that it can be spontaneous. it is the same with the songs "love instead" and "all around". and when i realize i want them on spotify i try to think of ways to improve them.

in this case "just walk away" i got help from Kat Bula. i collaborated with her in my song "how do we win?". she is an amazing violinist and with her music the song rose many steps higher. the last part of the chorus makes my arm hair rise. haha! it feels great to listen to it.

i also got help from my dad (thanks dad) who put a synth part in the start of the second verse. we think it sounds kinda like beatles! don't you think? it's truly great to make music with dad. we both really think it's fun to create and we both learn and get better. dad is really good with feedback on the songs, loves to mix and master, add good instrumental parts like bass playing (he is a pro bassist). he's been with me from the start and it's awesome to create with him.

i wrote an earlier post about "just walk away". you can check it out in the link! i'm happy i got to release this song because it's really old. it's been in my song library for years. i have an old version of the song when i was a teenager and still lived with my mom (don't know if it still exists in my Mac), so i'm happy i got to do a remake! would be fun to compare them... that's the part of continous improvement.

take care

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it's finally out there! woah! pheeeew! it sure took longer than i expected to get this song out. sometimes when you've got ideas it ends up going nowhere and the best solution is to break it off and try another path. it was all about finding a fun video for the song, and the archery theme turned out well.

fun facts about this video: i fired a total of 24 arrows. 12 arrows at 18 meters distance from the target. 12 arrows from 1 meters distance from the target. hehe. the magic of video making!

the lyrics is about perfectionism and mostly performance anxiety, something many people struggle with and i am not an exception. i still do, especially i am facing new challenges, but i believe i'm getting better and better at being imperfect and accepting my faults. archery is a great way for me to practice imperfectionism. it can be tempting to be all obsessed over that yellow circle but i focus on the process rather than the result and it's all about practice. when i started to shoot more, i got better.

breaking down some of the lyrics:

"aim for the long run, aim for the road" means aiming for the journey of life.

"break a leg or two, break your heart and let it go" means to have courage to do things that scares you, to have courage to love people and learn to let go of things.

"and all your doubts and hard words, kill them with fire" means basically to kill your inner critic with fire a la Targaryen style.

"come alive" means to do the things you want to do in life, do the things that make you come alive.

take care,,