「cover up my indecision.」

hello!

a new song is here called "bittersweet".

i wrote the lyrics with the image of a café. some weeks ago, i sat by the window seat and looked at people walking by on the street with different clothing styles and different destinations. It was a saturday morning and you could sense that slow happy weekend vibe.

i thought about heart break combined it with a café surrounding. i wanted that cozy but sad, melancoly feeling when you treat yourself with good things when you're kind of sad. i want to write more songs in cafés.

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Trying

Looking for some clarity

Notice everyone I see

Living carefree

Thinking

Ruminating constantly

An overthinking mess, you see

I know I’m stupid

Repeating thoughts goes round and round and

Meet me here

Cover up my indecision

Rain is pouring

Leaves are falling on the street

Bittersweet

Reappear

Bury all my hesitation

Rain is pouring

Leaves are falling on the street

It’s Bittersweet

I’m drowning

We are torn and I am here

Once again, these memories

They reappear, so clear

Tasteless

Serve me something I believe

Won’t drink your thoughts, I feel deceived

Though you’d disagree

chorus

「sinking teeth into what's left from yesterday.」

hello there! i'm back with a (late) post of my new song that's up on my channel. i really enjoyed making it, (although it was released some days after planned release). but it's okay, it's important to know your own limits.

the weekend i usually planned to release music was filled with lots of fun things. i celebrated a dear pal of mine who turned 30. we were out drinking at a safe distance for people. the day after i went to see a friend, we where in some sort of science museum and also had some coffee and talked for hours, it was really fun. well spent weekend. so this music piece had to wait. :3

it's saturday now and i am lying in my futon with the cats. they are sleeping so close to each other and the sky outside is blue and sunny. i am having a relaxed sleepy morning, i'm really happy.

enjoy your saturday!

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waking up at ten

fill the morning cup

spend some time in bed

before i’m finally getting up

stress and worries gone

call some take-away

raspy voice i’m done

on weekends i just wanna play

nothing’s planned today

sinking teeth into what’s left from yesterday

switching off my phone

no one can reach me,

i got some time alone

just wanna take it slow

the list of things to do can wait for tomorrow

swallowed by a book

turn another page

save this favorite quote

to a future rainy day

turn it to a song

or something to paint

let the minutes count

there’s so much to create

chorus

morning after

let’s stay inside today

let’s chill inside and play

morning after

make room to slow it down

make room to really let it show

「i'm tired of making it up.」

i'm happy to be back again making music after a few weeks of vacation. i was pretty tired the weeks before summer and i felt like i was running on reserve batteries. i really looked forward to some free time. i wanted to avoid screens as much as i could because i got tired of looking into screens all the time. so i didn't make any music and i didn't procude anything this whole summer.

before summer, i always think about being creative and making a lot of songs and producing a lot in summer, but when summer comes i just don't have the energy. and i believe it's pretty much the same with almost everything you like. no matter how much you love it - it's good to take a break from it.

「making it up」 is my new youtube song. i wanted to play some electric guitar and keep it simple. i enjoyed doing it. (=^‥^=)

decided to put my lyrics here on the blog, so here it is!

i can’t explain my feelings

words come out, they don’t make sense

i tripped along this journey

toward the happy end

don’t dare to speak your name out

afraid of what it does to me

you’re there but still a stranger

i'm caged and you are free

i’m dying to see you

i’m trying to leave you

too tired to face the fact

i’m dying to feel you

i’m trying to hate you

i’m tired of making it up

i’m trapped inside this image

an image of a broken plan

i gave you all my hours

you just gave up what we had

to go on and on

i still see your colors

it goes on and on

i’ll never find another

will go on and on

it’s the same smile that you gave to me

to go on and on

i hate that i want you

it goes on and on

i will try to forget you

will go on and on

it’s the same smile that you gave to me

i’ve learned to see the difference

to leave when life will raise the bar

i know that time is precious

it will heal, become a scar

i’m dying to see you

i’m trying to leave you

too tired to face the fact

i’m dying to feel you

i’m trying to hate you

i’m tired of making it up