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here’s my latest song ”10 %”. the third song in the modern mixtape series 2023. each original song i release is worth 10 real life trees that will grow in the amazons rainforest.

meaning

the song is more or less about making more room for creativity, having balance between work and free time. last year, i got the chance to work 90 % and spend the rest 10 % to creating music. i wrote a lot of songs and released 17 original songs. i learned a lot by this experience and i think it’s the result of how much music and videos i create today.

creative process

”10 %” was fun to make, and i wanted to try to incorporate more lofi/hip hop instruments. i have a weak spot for the sub bass in the song. the song is intentionally simple, i figured out i didn’t want more tracks. just keep it simple, stupid.


illustration

it’s supposed to look like a ”rafflesia arnoldii”. it’s a species of flowering plant in the parasitic genus rafflesia. it is noted for producing the largest individual flower on earth. it has a strong and unpleasant odor of decaying flesh. (uhh...) it is native to the rainforests of sumatra and borneo.


the choice of plant has nothing to do with the song, i just think it’s pretty cool.

lyrics

time passing by

this overtime

been looking for this instead

i’ve changed my mind

not gonna lie

between my heart and head

a new routine

what about me

can i never let it go

barely holding it up

there is no stop

can we watch each other grow

flow like water, break a barrier

i need some time and room

grow mistakes collect the lessons

like a garden in bloom

and just one day i will know

don’t wanna wait no

don’t wanna live in yesterday

release some time to do it

everyday

don’t wanna hold up

when it’s time to start again

the answer is as clear as

ten percent

hi! i released a song on youtube called ”boundaries” two weeks ago. it’s my second song of the modern mixtape series 2023.

meaning

i wrote this song in december 2020. i recall watching a video on a social media plattform back then. it was about a daughter and her mother, it was about discrimination and the mother wrote that she wished for the daughter to ”break through the boundaries that the world will place around her”. it made an impact, so i wrote the sentence down for a future song. and this is the song.

creative process

i wanted to try something different this time, more electronic and dance, so i listened to some daft punk songs, especially ”digital love”, i also got inspiration from the song ”i do” by an artist called Amy 艾雨帆. i listen mostly to the energy in the songs and how it’s structured.

illustration

it’s an amazon jungle vine called ”cissus amazonica”. each original song i release is worth 10 real life trees that will grow in amazons rainforest.


lyrics

seconds away from a closure

i’m drifting away from painful emotions

making it all come together

i’m taking my time to feel so much better


i know that you just wanna break through

the boundaries the world has placed around you

lets build a new game together

i promise this feeling will last forever


walls around me are crumbling

turning to dust, soars all around me

never once seen the outside

slowly taking in the morning skyline


my legs go weak

heart skips a beat

i’ve been waiting for so long

to take the leap

i’m closing in

can feel the heat

i’ve been waiting so long

waiting so long

a better life

come crashing in

’cause i know it’s a new start

imagining

embrace the change

i’ll take a break

i’ve been waiting for so long

waiting for too long

hello! here’s is the latest song ”magical”, the very first song of 2023!

meaning

the song is inspired by one of my favorite BL dramas called ”cherry magic”. it’s the first real BL drama i watched and i fell in love.


you can find many references to this drama, like ”magical”. ”tell me now how you feel, what matters the most” is also from ”cherry magic the movie”. the point of view is from kurosawa’s perspective. the last verse ”in a week you’re leaving” is from the movie where adachi leaves because of work. kurosawa tries to be supportive. i guess the pre-chorus and chorus is from the perspective of adachi.

creative process

i gave this song just a week because i did my mashup 2022 this month. i want to release the new songs on weeks where i don’t buy groceries and do my laundry. haha. it means the second song will come out (probably!) tomorrow. :3

illustration

it’s a monstera plant, very common in tropical forests, which is the theme of this year. each original song i release is worth 10 real life trees that will grow in amazons rainforest.

apparently, this plant is also called delicious monster, fruit salad plant or fruit salad tree. the fruit of monstera tastes like fruit sallad (i don’t really know how fruit salad tastes like, isn’t that just a combo of many fruits?? does is mean the fruit tastes like many fruits in one?)

lyrics

never dared to dream it

damn sure it would break apart

like you would believe me

that i fell right from start

i wasn’t fine

you weren’t mine

pretending this is okay

pinch me hard i’m dreaming

got a hunch you like me too

i wonder what you’re thinking

stumbling over what to do

you weren’t mine

i wasn’t fine

pretending this is okay

in a week you’re leaving

tried my best to root for you

but hiding what i’m feeling

daydreams are passing through

you weren’t fine

you weren’t mine

pretending this is okay

i want to prove you wrong

but i belong to the fools and dreamers

i want to speak my mind

what i want what i hide

runs so much deeper


i know what i want

i know i want you

life is magical

as long as i’m with you

tell me now how you feel

what matters the most

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